Dearest Cade and Caelin,

It is with such a heavy heart that I write this post. Tomorrow I return to work where I will miss you both more than words. These past three months have been possibly the best months of my life. I have enjoyed being home with you both. There is nothing like the smiles on your faces when you wake up. I will miss our PJ days, all the fun places we ventured to, endless trips to McDonald's and Chick-fil-a, playing at the park, picnics, and snuggle time. God truly showed me how special each of you are and how unique your personalities are. Each of you have taught me things that I am forever grateful for.

Cade, you showed me that anything in life can be a toy. Although frustrating at times, I have learned to appreciate your creativeness. We have banged pots, played jump rope with belts, built towers with the drawers of furniture, and you have been known more than once to claim the floor lamp as your personal "fire pole". I look at everything in life much differently now, and I owe that to you. If we aren't having fun and smiling everyday, are we really living life?

Caelin, even at 3 months, you have taught me things as well. You remind me daily that some things can wait. The dishes can be done another time, and the laundry can be folded later. I have always been a busy bee and felt the need for things to always be done as soon as possible. However, these last few months with you, I learned that you can always add more time to the dryer to get wrinkles out of clothes. Your simple smile reminds me to just hold you and talk rather than the household chores calling my name. I will never regret putting off those chores (even if I finished them at midnight some days).

I want you both to know that the decision to be a working Mom is hard for me. I would be so lucky if I was able to stay home with you both. Truth is, I have a calling and passion for my work that I believe God wants me to continue. However, this does mean that I will smother you both with love when we are together...so get ready! I will forever hang on to the memories we made these past three months. Words will never be enough to describe how much I love each of you. You are my joy and I love you both "all the way around the world and back again".

Mom