Some days are just harder than others. 10 years ago today was the last time I hugged my sweet Daddy. When I was leaving he made a point to hug me longer than normal, tell me he was proud of me, and even told me "look at me" and said "I just really love you sweetie". I remember thinking he was probably over medicated from the surgery and being silly. I did my usual dance around him to annoy him and he gave me the half smile. I drove away with the usual honking theme we do as he waved goodbye. I never imagined that would be my last wave. However, what a great last it was. I sometimes wish I would have held on a bit longer. But, the truth is, had I known, I would have never let go and that happy moment would have not been such a happy one. I am blessed not only to have had the best Daddy ever, but the best last moments together. Just a few days later, on March 3 I got the worst call of my life that he was slipping away. My heart knew that my life would be vastly different moving forward. I will always wish for one more of everything with him, but I know that feeling is just a reminder of how amazing my Daddy was.
Daddy, I hope you are celebrating your 10 years with Jesus and singing extra loud for me. You will always be the best Daddy and I love you. See you one day soon. Love, your Sweetie "3"
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